This week has been really weird. I keep seeing myself like a reflection. Everytime I feel one way, I feel the complete opposite. When I think about my girlfriend, one moment I feel like this is right and I'm happy it's over, the next I feel sad, disgusted and lonely. I think how exciting it'll be to go out and meet new people and the next I realize how alone I am. It's like a dream and it's like a nightmare.

Me and my girlfriend of almost 3 years broke up earlier tonight. It was very sudden I couldn't have seen it coming at all. Man...this fucking blows.

22 years old...damn I'm old.

Highlight of the past couple of weeks for me was seeing Revenge of the Fallen and Public Enemies. If you're a fan of Michael Mann's movies, Public Enemies will make up for the Miami Vice movie. Aside from that, my week was thus:
Had to watch a sick cat die, my modem got fried and earlier today I had a seizure. Yaaaay!

I really need to try and post these more regularly. Alright my closer friends on here I've already told about this but for those of you interested or curious, not too long ago I got diagnosed with something called Paranoid Personality Disorder. My doc also thinks I have a social phobia of some kind. I honestly don't know a whole lot about what any of this means but it's not fun. I think I need a good sized vacation and I need to get my head cleared. Think that'd help me a lot.